I'm on my timeline and BOOM another one bites the dust and gets married… BOOM another one is having a baby… BOOM another one just got accepted into a Master’s program. I watch these beautiful explosions go off and I wonder what it would feel like to be in that place in my life. To be bursting with life-altering good news. To be somewhat farther than where I feel I am now. To have a plan or even a clue of some sort. Oh what it might feel like to be THERE.
Looking on the other side of the fence at potential possibilities made me question if I should strive to have these things for myself. Should I go farther with my education? Is the 9-5 job that the other person has something I should try? Should I venture to a different life path to be more financially stable? Maybe it's just my 20s forcing me to ask these questions. All I know is that in measuring myself against others, I lose sight of my own authenticity.
Perhaps the questions aren't what should I be doing but could I do those things? Could I forfeit the possibility to feel more connected in what I do for security? Could I abandon the here for the perceived beauty of the there? When I speak from a place of truth, the answer is no.
Who am I when I tune down the chatter of comparison? Instead of looking to others for beaten paths, I am brought to look within. Within is where I can find my gifts and talents and how to direct my efforts towards sharing this happiness. Where I can find the courage to explore my passions and to truly experience what makes me feel alive. It is a privilege to being able to choose how to direct my life, one that is not always afforded to others. Therefore, I am embracing this ability to align who I am with where I want to be.
I am here. Waiting for life to unfold from within.